Monday, August 15, 2011

I Had That Dream Again...

I have been having this recurring dream for YEARS now...and it has grown so complex that I have started "Inception"-ing myself.  At one point last night, I said, "I had a dream where something like this happened. Weird." 

In this dream, I realize the week before final exams that I *forgot* to drop my Accounting class even though I stopped attending months before.  Therefore, I have missed all the lessons, all the quizzes, all the homework, and now I am failing.  It's too late to drop the class so I have to frantically study, in hopes of getting a high enough score on the final to simply NOT get an F.  I usually run around looking for classmates to share notes.  Then I plead with my counselor that I thought I dropped the class; I really meant to, at least.  Finally, I beg my teacher for some forgiveness - perhaps if he would weight my entire grade on this final, I may be able to get a C. 
Last night's dream was a bit more advanced.  I was working full time at my old company and trying to get a Master's degree. I got so wrapped up in work that I forgot to attend any of my classes and eventually forgot that I was even in a Masters program.  I only realized that I was going to fail when  my adviser called me about my thesis...which was due in 24 hours! Unfortunately, the only place I had to study was my dad's OLD office. (the one he sold to a riverboat casino in 1996...strange)  So while sitting among the stacks of antiques, starting at the massive swordfish mounted on the wall, I realized that I had writer's block. And rather than trying to focus, I simply decided to pick up a feather duster and start cleaning.

As a lifelong overachiever - any dreams that involve failure are basically my worst nightmares.  These dreams are usually linked to stressful times in my life or just a spillover from anxiety I have int he daytime.

After reflecting today, I realize why my dream advanced beyond an Accounting to a Masters in (not sure, actually) - is because I fear that I am failing YOU.  I am finding it increasingly difficult to sit down and just write.  I have lots of things to say.  Lots of fun stories and silly things I have done... but it is like I woke up today and realized, "Wait. I have a blog? And it's overdue? SHIT. Didn't I have a dream about that?"

SO - I apologize and THANK YOU for sticking with me.  Fun stories coming this week are Tales from a weekend with Mademoiselle GingerMess and Madame MarriedMess, my new obsession with Vintage Shopping, a new favorite Lifetime Movie starring Tia & Tamara Mowry, and the continuation of Bad Decision August (involving 2 dates, 1 night).

BONUS MATERIAL: I couldn't have a post about skipping school and not feature the boy who makes me want to go back to high school just so I can skip class with him.  Jordan Catalano!

11 comments:

  1. Some time around the end of every semester, I have that same nightmare of "holy shit I forgot I was taking a class..." You're not alone. But it's annoying as shit, and I want to punch babies when I wake up, because I'm always really confused and have to start checking things to make sure I'm not ACTUALLY enrolled in a class.

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  2. I usually have it at the beginning of a semester. I've never tried to bargain in the dream; I always get the F's. 

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  3. I always had this dream when I was in college -- and it always involved some kind of Math class, too. (But usually I was back on my high school campus.) I've had it a few times since I graduated and it still scares me.

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  4. Gosh, Jared Leto was so hot on "My So-Called Life"!  I had such a huge crush on him too!  Thanks for the memories!

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  5. You wanna hear something awesome? Something VERY similar to your nightmare, actually happened to me. Probably one of the shittiest weeks of my life.

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  6. I can't believe how many of us have this same dream! I hate the dreams that make actually question yourself the next day... a couple weeks ago, I woke up and wasn't sure if I owned a secret boat or not.  I almost called my parents to ask.

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  7. Sadly, I haven't been in school for YEARS! So I'm not sure why this still happens.... Also - I never actually find out if I get the F because I spend the entire dream panicking until I wake up.  I think I probably still failed.

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  8. I know! I have been out of school for 6 years and it still pops up!  I heard it has to do with anxiety...but don't I have any adult anxiety to dream about? :)

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  9. Oh I still love him!  I just wanted to teach that poor boy to read...and then have my way with him! :)

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  10. OH NO!  What did you do? Are you sure you aren't still dreaming? (inception style)   I hope it all worked out!

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  11. Sometimes reading your blog really makes me want a drink? LOL........ Not sure how that works hehe...

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